eternalrequiem’s blog

Visiting Humboldt county is always an experience.  Everyone's lifestyle is so different from anything in the denver area, but I always forget just how much till I am consumed by it at every visit.

There were plenty of new, interesting experiences to be had.  Meeting my brother's wife and 9 month old child was wonderful.  Meeting my other brother's 1 month old child was also wonderful.  It was great to see my Grandpa Doerner and his girlfriend, and my Grandpa and Grandma Jones.

I, by all means enjoyed everyone's company... but what felt more profound was what I realized about myself while I was there.

Growing up, I was surrounded by art, music and creativity.  My parents weren't overly concerned with my academic performance at school (though, sure I was rewarded for getting better grades.)  I think they were more concerned with who I was... art and music consumed me during those years.

My dad made me a doll house and a stable  (when I was a little too old to play with them) and although grateful of them, I disregarded them.  I guess my father's art was normalcy... I noted that his ability was certainly talented, but so everyday that it seemed like nothing out of the ordinary.

While in california, I attended at least a couple places aside from my father's house where his artwork was on display.  I mailed the afore mentioned house and stable to myself.  And.. I guess those, and my dad's  composure made me think about my life.  The art that I've done in the last few years is (to me) mediocre and rare.  I've been fooling myself into believing that all of my previous skill had not diminished due to lack of use, and that my mindset was still artistic..
I would now say thata couple months before visiting california I began the tedious journey into these realizations, and the visit brought about more clarity...

Having found inspiration there is a slow growing root of change that.. hopefully is noticiable =)

What's holding you back from your dream job?
Submitted by Question of the Day.

Focus...

I dont' think there's anything else really to add.

I really have nothing to write..
I'm supposed to be working on something.. of which I'm actually getting paid for, but.. well.. I also haven't done the normal internet rigamarol over the weekend... so.. here I am =)
hmm

well.. now that I've managed to place rigamarol in a sentence... Life is officially complete
see you later
Vee